6 August 2015 – Chemo for the Third Time (Bendamustine) (Cancer and Me 36)
I don’t even know what to write, I’m so tired. Why am I so tired? I guess it’s partly because of the prednisolone. Even when we were on holiday I struggled to sleep much after 5am. The prednisolone also seems to make my legs and hands feel weak (I also regularly get cramp in my…
11 July 2015 – Ticking Over (Cancer and Me 35)
It’s been two-and-a-half weeks since the treatment plan was agreed. It feels like months. I’ve been back at work full time, but the new project manager has not yet started so it’s been hectic getting back into things. Our holiday in Wales is coming up next Friday, only 6 days to go. And I’m tired.…
24 June 2015 – The Upshot at the Second Relapse (Cancer and Me 34)
I eventually got to see my haematology doctor last Friday (19 June), and had a good hour with him asking questions. It was finally a relief to be able to get some quality time with him, rather than squeezing in phone calls and rushed messages. It was still a little perturbing that my questions prompted…
16 June 2015 – This is ruining my life (Cancer and Me 33)
It’s now Tuesday, six days after getting the biopsy result and being told to get ready for intensive treatment for relapsed high grade lymphoma. They said last week they’d confirm the results “in the next few days” and hoped to get on with intensive treatment starting within a matter of days after that. Six days…
12 June 2015 – Telling People (Cancer and Me 32)
One of the things that struck me this time round is how stressful it is telling people the news. In some ways it’s easier telling people who are close to you. I say that hesitantly, though. We told the kids in the evening on the day I got the biopsy result. Originally we had planned…
12 June 2015 – Not Good News (Cancer and Me 31)
Only two and a half months ago I was wondering how I would know whether the lymphoma was back. I needn’t have worried. Somehow something led to an investigation, and then a CT scan showed it up. But the news I received two days ago with the results of the biopsy was as much a…
1 June 2015 – Biopsy (Cancer and Me 30)
It’s nearly 2 weeks since I got the confirmation that the lymphoma is back. And I’ve only just had the biopsy today. The results will be discussed in a haematology appointment on 10 June. Joe’s got 2 GCSE exams after that, so he will be nearly done. We’ve managed fairly well to keep up the…
19 May 2015 – Predictable but Unexpected (Cancer and Me 29)
I had my post-treatment routine CT scan on 6 May. My follow up appointment was pre-booked for 29th. The predictable thing, which I referred to at the end of the last instalment, was that there would be anxiety, wondering if the scan would show up anything abnormal. But at least beforehand I was telling myself…
25 March 2015 – The End of Another Chapter (Cancer and Me 28)
Fast forward almost two years… Today is both momentous and mundane. I’ve been spending a day in hospital every two months for the last two years, having Rituximab maintenance treatment. And today it’s the last one. Number 12. As I write I am sat in the chair waiting to be cannulised so that treatment can…
17 November 2013 – Latent Anxiety (Cancer and Me 27)
So what was the outcome of the ultrasound scan on my leg and groin? Well, of course, there was nothing there (except a couple of tiny inguinal hernia). So there was a lot of worry about nothing in the end. But Heidi and I had worked ourselves into a state for several reasons. First, other…